if you lived here, you'd be home already

i feel rather selfish and stupid for not being completely satisfied with my life right now. plenty of stuff is going great, especially with the band. the feeling of just sitting and waiting is a little frustrating but i have faith this stuff is going to come through for us. the process of working on the new record has been the most fulfilling thing i have done in a long time and it's kept me going throughout the past month, one which historically has been a bad month of the year for me.

despite all this, i still think living here is the worst. being around my family is basically like being alone. steve's probably the closest thing i have to a friend among any of them and we still aren't that tight. i miss being downtown, living with other people, being able to go out and do whatever i want. i miss being able to just walk down the street to a friend's house when i'm feeling shitty.

going to the bar has lost it's luster, i think. but where else are you supposed to meet people when you are twenty-one and living in a college town?