studio blog 1

somewhere between 3.5 and 4 days we've been here at atlas. drum tracking is coming along, taking longer than i thought but gotta make that shit perfect yo? 9, 12, 13 15 and the bonus song left to do. confident we'll be done with them wednesday however. i am anxious about the time it's taken but i think justin and mattallison are excited about what we are doing, and not getting impatient with us. i think they realize how complex this shit is and they know its gonna take mad work to make it sound rad. i duno. i'm self-conscious about it. don't want to appear unpro. scared about how much time we have left.

yesterday: collect calls from home. tell them that i realize that everyone who lives will someday die, but not before having a three-hour conversation with someone you haven't spoken to in a year. i have no idea how to feel about the whole situation but it has been on my mind more today than i would have hoped. i guess its just nice to reconnect with old friends. haven't been doing as much of that lately as i have been disconnecting from new ones.

its hard to feel like so much of my life is on track and great yet i can't manage to figure myself out in some areas. maybe throwing myself at the band and our work is my way of escaping the parts of my life i still don't really get.